I am lots of things. A daughter, a sister, a step-daughter, a neice, a cousin, a wife, a mother, a friend, a waitress, a student, an alcoholic, a drug addict, a compulsive shopper, a compulsive gambler, a fat chick.
I am ok with all but one of these. I love all my interpersonal relationships, there are moments when some of them are a bit taxing, but I would never give any of them up, not even for a second. I would also never give up the problems I have overcome, they make me strong, compassionate, and empathetic.
It's the fat thing. I am a smart, strong, accomplished woman, but I can not move beyond being the fat chick. I can not seem to do anything consistently about it. I need motivation, direction, something to get me to the point where not doing it is no longer an option. But instead, I sit, I don't do anything, I feel sorry for myself, and hate myself.
So, what do I do?? How do I overcome my last addiction? I have no answer right now, any suggestions?
JENNY CRAIG...keep telling you!
ReplyDeletekeep moving. start small. walk 15 minutes from your house, 15 back. every day, no matter what weather, test, etc. this will clear your head, energize you and give you confidence here, if you can do so many other things, family, school, work, SOBRIETY, this is a shoe in.
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