So, I have this friend, who has a friend, that I know a little bit. She is in a lot of trouble right now, and my friend thinks I can help her. I have no way of getting in touch with her, so maybe she will read this...
I was a junkie. A souless, theiving, fiending, meth addicted junkie 16 years ago. I drank more than anyone I ever met, and I had no care in the worlk for my life or anyone elses. This January I will be sober 16 years if all goes according to plan. I am not the same person I used to be at all.
The purpose of this is to say to you, I have been where you are right now. I am thankful I did not have my kids yet, and then decision you made for yours was the best one you could make right now. You are not a worthless piece of shit, and I wasn't either. I always felt just not quite as good as everyone else. I was kind of an outsider in my own life. I know we were both adopted, my parents were divorced and remaried. I lived with my mom, stepdad and their natural son growing up...I felt like I was a guest in their families house. All of that was just from my head, no one told me that, it was just me.
There is hope, and if you need help you can message me privately and I will keep your confidences. I assume at this point if you are reading this you know who you are...I love your friend very much, and she loves you very much, so I needed to try to reach out to you. If you are not ready or this yet, I get it. But if you want to stop not living, and get this shit behind you, I will be there for you whenever you need.
I never thought I would live out of my 20's, I have a life beyond my wildest dreams now. T just wants you to have one too :) xoxo
